Morgan-Tubes

I'm very nervous for my baby girl! I haven't blogged about it before because I didn't want to look like I was obsessing... but I have been obsessing in my own little mind! Whole long story in a shorter long story... The week between Christmas and New Years I couldn't handle Morgan saying "What" one more time! It had been growing worse and worse and at this point she was saying 'What' to almost everything said to her! We also had this conversation one night in her bedroom:

"Momma, turn on my fan please"
"Your fan is on sweet pea"
"But Momma I can't hear it"
"Morgan it IS on, I promise"
Then with tears streaming down her face she said, "Momma, I can't hear it"

After that conversation (that broke by heart) we proceeded to feel that the fan was on (a new nightly ritual ever since). Wednesday December 30th I called the ENT (directly without calling my Pediatrician, I new this was a problem!!). I called the ENT that put tubes in my ears many times when I was a wee-little one. I must have sounded panicked enough that I got an appointment that Monday the 4th (less than a week later!). Mentioning I was a Speech Language Pathologist may not have hurt either!

Went to our appointment that Monday. (Let I mention I saw no other patients there when we got there or when we left, I think they really did create a new appointment for us!) We went in and Dr. Nesi said yes, I see lots of fluid. He then said sometimes kids say 'what' to test their parents (to which comment I bit a hole in my tongue and just smiled, because he was the expert...but I KNEW something was wrong!). The Audiologist then took us back to the booth and did a full battery of tests on Morgan's ears. Her tympanic membranes (the part that is supposed to move extremely rapidly to transfer sound waves) was moving very sluggishly she said. During the speech recognition test where -10dB to +10dB (decibels) is average Morgan heard in each ear at 40dB! Yikes!! (Spelled correctly for you Aunt Megan). When the doctor saw the results from the Audiologist he said with those types of results he would fit us in within the next couple weeks as soon as possible for TUBES. The SLP in me popped out and my brain started thinking "hearing loss could lead to articulation errors and therapy. If you can't hear the sounds correctly, you obviously won't be able to say them right..... NO!!" So the wait began (oh - ps. she can't have a cold when she gets the operation, good luck with that one!). We were finally told last Monday that she could be put on the schedule for Wednesday the 20th and to call at 3:30 the Tuesday before for the time. Doylestown Hospital here we come... or so we thought...

So all this time I did not do any research because I didn't want to see all the scary things that could happen to 1% of the cases... because I knew in my brain that 1% would be Morgan... and more fear would occur! Although rationally I know that the tubes surgery is very routine and quick and easy, but still... it's my baby and she will be going under!

This afternoon came and everything went bonkers! Dr. Nesi's office called and spoke to Daddy. The hospital would not work with them and said that the earliest time they could give Morgan for her surgery was 1:30 (moved up from a 4pm start). It would be one thing if it was an adult waiting until then... but really? A three year old who is not allowed to drink or eat anything when she wakes up? Come on! So they called the Wellness Center in Warrington. I thought the Wellness Center was just a big gym (by driving by it) but it is actually half gym, half Surgical Center where they do mostly athletic surgeries. They could fit us in in the morning so after I did some research and found out that everything would be the same as the hospital I opted to go ahead and do it at the Surgical/Wellness Center. Ok... arrival time is: 6:30am! Yikes, that is early!

So now I just need to wait... I know it will be ok... I know it will be ok...